Nothing compares...

I've realised this week that it is so easy to fall out of a routine when you don't need to have one. Unfortunately, it is my routine of devotion time of prayer and journaling with God that I've fallen out of. It's amazing just how much joy God can bring to your life, and the moment you try to start pushing him out, a sense of emptiness fills your heart. Thats exactly how I feel today. I know that it's literally impossible to hide from the love of God, it's everywhere. But I've been frustrated with him, and have been shutting him out just because I'm being selfish and want to do things my way. And as hard as I'm finding it to accept, God's way is the best way. Even though I can't see what's going to happen, I just need to trust him with it.

Father God, again tonight I'm surrendering these things at your feet. Nothing compares to the greatness of knowing you Lord. Please keep me strong...

DONE SCHOOL!

Thank you God for getting me through my first your of college alive! AMEN!

couldn't think of a title....

I've been trying desperately to study today..but my mind is in a million different places. I can't seem to focus on anything these days, not really sure why. One of my biggest challenges right now is the fact that I've given up dating/relationships/thinking about all that stuff for 6 months so that I can really focus myself on God, getting to know him, and have him be the primary love of my life. Well..way easier said than done, I find now that I've made that commitment I struggle even more with the whole subject. I'm so tired of the fact that satan knows my weaknesses and he's constantly pushing those buttons...trying to make me fall. The sad thing is, that he has been successful at times, more times than I'd like to admit. But the great thing is, God is an omnipotent God, he is all powerful, and that power can help us overcome temptation. I pray everyday for strengh, for self-control, and for wisdom, and I know that God is really going to strengthen me over the next few months, he's already been teaching me patience and that true love is worth waiting for.

Batter My Heart, Three-Personed God, For You - John Donne

Batter my heart, three-personed God, for You
As yet but knock, breathe, shine, and seek to mend.
That I may rise and stand, o'erthrow me, and bend
Your force to break, blow, burn, and make me new.
I, like an usurped town to anohter due,
Labor to admit You, but Oh! to no end.
Reason, Your viceroy in me, me should defend,
But is captived, and proves weak or untrue.
Yet dearly i love you, and would be loved fain,
But am betrothed unto Your enemy;
Divorce me, untie or break that knot again;
Take me to You, imprison me, for I,
Except You enthrall me, never shall be free,
Nor ever chaste, except you ravish me.

Everything

Find me here
Speak to me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
You are the light
That is leading me to the place where I find peace again
You are the strength that keeps me walking
You are the hope that keeps me trusting
You are the life to my soul
You are my purpose
You are everything
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you

Would you tell me how could it be any better than this
You calm the storms
You give me rest
You hold me in your hands
You won't let me fall
You steal my heart and you take my breath away
Would you take me deeper now
'Cause you're all I want
You're all I need
You are everyting, everything

Breathing

I've found a long way back to sanity again
Though I don't really know what I'm gonna do
When I get there...
Take a breath and hold on tight
And spin around one more time
And gracefully fall back to the arms of grace

'Cause I'm hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't wanna speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more
Than to sit outside Heaven's door
And listen to you breathing
It's where I wanna be, yeah
Where I wanna be...

I'm looking past the shadows in my mind
Into the truth and I'm
Trying to identify the voices in my head
God, I wish it were you
Let me feel one more time what if
Feels like to feel and
And break thses callouses off of me one more time

'Cause I'm hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't wanna speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me

'Cause I want nothing more
Than to sit outside your door
And listen to you breathing
It's where I wanna be, yeah...

I don't want a thing from you
I bet you're tired of me
Waiting for the scratch to fall off
Off your table to the ground...
'Cause I jsut wanna be here now...

'Cause I'm hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't wanna speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more
Than to sit outside your door
And listen to you breathing
It's where I wanna be, yeah...

Where I wanna be...
Where I wanna be...

What The World Will Never Take

With all I'm holding inside
With all my hopes and desires
And all the dreams that I've dreamt
With all I'm hoping to be
And all that the world will bring
And all that fails to compare

You say you want all of me
I wouldn't have it any other way
I've got a saviour and he's living in me..whoa...

I wanna know...I wanna know..you today

And you're the best thing that has happened to me
And the world will never tkae..the world will never take you away

No-one could ever take you away...

All I Need Is You

Left my fear by the side of the road
Hear you speak
Won't let go
Fall on my knees asI lift my hands to pray

Got every reason to be here again
Father's love that draws me in
And all my eyes wanna see
Is a glimpse of you

All I need is you...All I need is you Lord...Is you Lord

One more day and it's not the same
Your spirit calls my heart to sing
Drawn to the voice of my saviour once again

Where would my soul be without your Son
Gave his life to save the earth
Rest in the thought that you're watching over me

All I need is you...All I need is you Lord...Is you Lord
All I need is you...All I need is you...

You hold the universe
You hold everyone on earth
You hold the universe
You hold...you hold...

decisions...decisions..

I HATE DECISIONS!!!


Father God, I pray right now for guidance. You know the decions that I'm faced with, you know my heart, and you know my strengths and my weaknesses. I just pray that which ever opportunity I end up taking, that you will break me, stretch me, refine me and use me for your will Lord. All these things I pray in your Precious and Holy name, Amen.

a little update...

Well I officially have 1 more day of classes, and then exams begin...where did the time go? Don't get me wrong I'm extremely excited about my first year of college being done..THANK YOU GOD for getting me through it alive! But...now the stresses of what is to come next are weighing down on my shoulders. My summer plans....only God knows what they are right now, but I'm trying really hard to just trust him and know that he's going to lead me in the right direction. I just ask for prayer support over the next few weeks as I write my exams, and that doors for the summer will open. Thanks a bunch! MUAH!

Patience: a virtue I do not posess

Lately one of my biggest struggles is patience in so many areas of my life...

I've been digging into God's word to help me with this..and have found some great words of wisdom and inspriration...I hope they speak ot your heart as they did mine..enjoy!!

Psalm 27:13-14
"I am still confident of this: I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord."

Psalm 37:7
"Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for him; do not fret when men will be cut off, bout those whol hope in the Lord will inherit the land."

Romans 2:7
"To those who by persistence in doing good seek glory, honor and immortality, he will give eternal life."

1 Timothy 1:16
"But for that very reason I was shown mercy so that in me, the worst of sinners, Christ Jesus might display his unlimited patience as an example for those who would believe on him and recieve eternal life."

Hebrews 6:12
"We do not want you to become lazy, but to imitate those who through faith and patience inherit what has been promised."

Isaiah 55:22
"For I am the Lord, your God, who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you."

AND MY FAVOURITE OF THEM ALL....

Romans 8:25
"But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it PATIENTLY."

I realise it's been quite a while since I've updated...haven't really had much to say. Things are a little weird right now. I'm just trying to get through the last few weeks of school alive! I'm having a hard time keeping my focus pants on (yes Aqua that is what I said)! Lately music has been my escape, I just put on some tunes...and dance/jump around on my mini trampoline in my room and sing my little heart out...it's great fun..you should try it!

This is one of my favourites right now...for the lyrics and the beats..lol..ENJOY!

I feel like
I would like
to be somewhere else
doing something that matters
and I lay here or I sit here
my mind walks away and
my thoughts are together
Whats the purpose it feels worthless
I'm haunted by the lost of my value
I can't find it not in the least bit
and I'm just scared, scared that I'll fail you

and sometimes I think that I'm not any good at all
and sometimes I wonder why I'm even here at all
but then you assure me I'm a little more than useless
when I think that I can't do this you promise me
that I'll get through this and
do something right
do something right for once

So I say if I can do something significant
I'll opt to leave most opportunities wasted
ain't nothing trival to let me give you
will measure up to
what might have replaced it to
Ray Brook not day break
respectful to days that were empty
and now gone and knock back the regret a road
to get me to improve in the long run

Sometimes I think that I'm not any good at all
sometimes I wonder why I'm even here at all
but then you assure me
I'm a little more than useless
when I think that I can't do this
you promise me that I'll get through this
and do something right do something right for once

I’m a little more than useless
and never knew I knew this
its gonna the day gonna be the day
that I will do something right
do something right for once.