I can only imagine...
I'm overflowing with emotion right now as I write this...I just got home from church and I can definately say that I've never felt God speak to me so clearly. No one I know is home from church yet, so I can't start making phone calls to tell everybody about it. I'm bursting and I need to let it out.
I went to Unionville Alliance this morning to hear Bruce Wilkinson (he wrote the Prayer of Jabez and many other books) speak. God has definately used this man in indesribable ways. His sermon this morning was all about being disciples and how we not only need to accept Jesus into our hearts, we also need to be followers. We need to open our hearts for God to use us! There was an alter call this morning for all those who wanted Jesus in thier hearts, those who have accepted him but have not yet become disciples, and those who are living sacrifices not sure of thier calling. I remained in my seat, glued as if I had 1000 pound weights on each of my appendeges. Bruce looked straight at me and said; "I know there is someone out there who needs to be up here, but is too afriad". All of a sudden I felt nautious...I knew he was talking to me yet I ignored him...I wouldn't make eye contact, I fidgeted my hands....still ignoring. He called again...more people went up...I stayed in my place. He then prayed with all those at the front, and there was an annointing ceremony of one of the men who works with him at his organization....all while this was going on I was jsut squirming in my seat, feeling guilty for just sitting there and not listening to the nudge on my heart.
Bruce Wilkinson is a part of the Organization called Heart for Africa (formerly known as Dream for Africa). He called up one of the famlies that works with the organization and they talked about how there were people in the congregation called to go to Africa for 10 days this June to help plant gardens in people's back yards to provide them with thier own means of food. The Woman (wife and mother) played a slide show presentation that went along with "I Can Only Imagine" by mercy me. The video broke my heart...i felt more and more nautious...chills up my spine, my knees were shaking, my hands quivering....as the video ended she said "who is called to go". I sat there for what seemed like an eternity..a thousand things running through my mind...I was sitting next to Julie (my sister) we both looked at eachother and she said "Lets go together"...we stood up walked hand in hand to the front..and by the time we got there my face was soaked with tears...but I knew that I was doing what God had asked me to do.
We were prayed over..and the commitment was made.
As of June 8th, 2006 I will be on a plane heading to Africa...just as My God and Father has asked me to. I am a Disciple of My Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ and I am going to be a witness of His Word!
All I ask is for prayers of encouragement and support....this was not an easy thing for me to do, everyone knows how hard I find it to let myself me challenged and to come outside of my box...well I'm doing it and I have faith that God is with me every step of the way.
www.dreamforafrica.com
posted by -jess- @ 7:56 AM
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