empty

I feel empty. Camp is usually the place where I feel the closest to God and right now, I'm just wondering where he is. This summer has been my hardest at camp so far, in many different ways. And at a time when I feel I need God really close to me, he seems to be the farthest away...or maybe it's that I'm the one falling away. I'm resposible for teaching the kids Bible on Thursdays.....and it's the lesson about Jesus. And as much as I know the story, and have grown up learning that Jesus died on the cross for our sins, I find it so hard to just express that to the kids in a way that they will understand and recognize the importance of Jesus in thier lives. But how can I teach them about something that I'm struggling with in my own life. I feel so discouraged and keep questioning...why I'm doing this?

I also have alot of other situations going on at the same time, that I'm not sure how to deal with, all of which include my weaknesses and satan pulling at them...trying to get me to stumble.

I need prayer...especially because I'm not that good at it right now. I need strength, and patience, wisdom and self-control.


Until later,